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Lili ɞ˚‧。⋆'s avatar

“The most innately attractive part of sadism that can be bound by love is the inherent restraint it requires” so well said, I love this!!!

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

Thank youuu🫢❤️💟💟

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petrichor's avatar

exactly this!

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Lyn Poesy P's avatar

This definitely touched me; thank you

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Alice Clara's avatar

Something haunting in this. I’ve read lots on here but never anything at all like your writing: it’s specific, compelling; there’s nothing vapid to it. Your reader cannot click away. Thank you. You’re a wonderful thinker and writer.

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

This absolutely made my day!!! Thank you so much ❤️

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didi's avatar

WOW i am so happy i read this it resonates with me so much thank you for sharing

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

<3 thank you so much for reading!

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freya joanna's avatar

every morning i look for a new essay on here to read while i drink my ginger tea and i’m so grateful i found yours! your writing brought me so much pleasure (as a sick little hedonistic freak). i personally love epicurus’ interpretation of hedonism since he defines lust as the highest good but distinguishes between the quality of earthly pleasures. retraining from instant gratification in favor for sustained effort that can result in a higher form of lust in the long term is also a thought that you expressed beautifully in your work ♡

much love from germany

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

Thank you so much! Very honored you chose to read my essay this morning ! 🥰

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𝓡𝓪𝓺𝓾𝓮𝓵 𝓕𝓲𝓼𝓱𝓮𝓻.𖥔 ݁ ˖'s avatar

This is one of the best things I’ve read in a while wow 😭🙏

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

:”)) thank you so much

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Tooth fairy's avatar

I need this whole essay tattooed on my back !!!!!!

Words cannot describe how much I love this. How many times I thought to myself “yes, this” or “this is what i’ve been saying”.

Your writing is beautiful. There were many parts of this piece that touched me. And moments where I felt seen.

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

Ahh this made my dad, so so glad you liked and connected to it! ❤️❤️❤️

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Dylan's avatar

it’s like ur inside my head

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Dylan's avatar

never leave

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

:”) ❤️❤️❤️

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Bung Holio's avatar

Mmmmmmmmm grrrrrr I love me a masochist, I’m a sadist

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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

aight, chill out bucko

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urppnballs^_^coc's avatar

"I worship you."? Show some restraint. Or I will.

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